Looking back at this time last year, so much has changed in a year. Last year during Christmas, I had just gotten a positive on a HPT and was also beginning to go through a miscarriage, even though I didn't know it at the time. Last year, I was really sad, because even though I wanted that little baby with all my heart, I knew deep down that something was wrong.
This Christmas, we are patiently waiting on the birth of our first(and probably only) child, Charles, who will be born during the first part of January. This Christmas hasn't really felt like Christmas to me though. I'm so used to going to my Nana's for Christmas, that I REALLY miss it this year. Last year, I was too worried to miss going. This year, it's just made me sad that I missed another Christmas with my Nana. To make it worse, I feel like the Grinch this year, since we were not able to buy Christmas presents for everyone that I wanted to buy for.
The good thing is Charles Garrett is doing well and seems to be developing normally, which is very important since I am a type 1 diabetic. Still I worry that something will happen between now and the time that he is delivered. (I think the older I get, the more like my mom I get, she worried about us constantly.) Pray that he will continue to develop normally and that we will have an uneventful delivery.
